Baby are you down down down down?
Okay, So now i know that someone actually reads my blog from time to time, you know who you are. So yeah, since its like that I’ll try not to be emo okay? I realise less and less of my blog has been about my life and more about ranting. Maybe that’s cause I do not feel secure, NOT ONE freaking bit but w/e let the story start.
So recent updates would include my purchase of a PS3 guitar hero world tour, my trip to johor, cruise trip to thailand and penang. Nothing much happened except the confiscation of my brass knuckles that i’m still wanting to complain. Oh the horror, W/e I’ll try something else next time. So you people reading my blog out there and saying that it sounds emo, actually it does and its the truth but heck we all get emo sometimes right?
Back on track, going back to school is such a bore,
it really is some life draining chore.
day by day throwing my life away,
really screwed up ain’t it?
making my life miserable
Okay so, maybe its my own perception, sleep deprivity caused me to overthink abit, but i thought we had somehting going on, perhaps its just me. IDK.
i.w.an.t.t.o.e.x.p.l.o.d.e
its 2 in the morning and i cant sleep, actually I can I’m just too freaking stubborn I realise my blog is starting to contain less and less details about my life and more about me ranting and raving, i guess thats why the readership of my blog is so poor these days, when I’m happy I come up with topics that are controversial that are fun, when I’m anything other than sad I’d come up with the same thing.
I’ve been ranting and raving all on my own for so long its really sad, its not that I’m seriously that unhappy its just that things happen altogether at different times so lets say something like this happens, I wake up feeling alright, someone gets me depressed, I hang on till afternoon when i thought it couldn’t get worse it happens again and at night it happens 1 last time.
okay its kind of bullshit when u read it that way but i suppose it does still happen like that. Fuck life is an absolutely messed up thing.one minute u think ur in control the next your not. howells thats life.
I WOULD LOVE TO SPAM VULGARITIES AND STUFF BUT THAT WOULD MAKE ME A HORRID PERSON.
sweet kisses.
what is love. How much of love can one truly understand? Been talking to a friend and i realise different people have different ideas of love, different feelings some good some bad.
Recently I’ve been fighting wars with my heart and its kinda stupid cos i wanna just let go of everything.
Anyways its a new school term, been working quite slackily god i hope things change. Seriously the time i spend in class thinking bout wow is incredible and its an uber waste of time too. tick tock tick tock, time to get farm my items.
You can say I told you so.
1pm a message sent.
4pm a msg received,
2 consecutive messages
and the phone went dead again.
6,7,8 I’ve waited.
I may be paranoid, I may be delusional. Nothing ever happened for this I’m sure. I hate waiting on like this with no answer.
you may be blur, I may be Naive.
I can’t take it much longer. Your really hacking away my life bit by bit by bit.
Do you take pleasure in tormenting me so?
Whatever. Everytime i try to give up i get hooked back in, every single time.
she left me roses by the stairs
okay so its the last day of holidays and what have i been doing? nothing in particular, well nothing at all.
I couldn’t care less what happens to my blog, but taking a look at it now i feel sick that i actually wrote all those things there.
sick of being sick.
So what i will do is, before the hell hole called school opens up and swallows me back in again, I’ll try to keep everything as light hearted as possible.
be forewarned that writing of light hearted material isn’t something a pessimist does easily.
some of the “light-hearted” materials may be in your case neutral.
pfft prawning session, on/off tonight? not sure. edwin’s still sleeping no confirmation everyone’s awaiting.
All the small things
Its all the small things that hurt me, the late night confrontations the avoidance. It urks me. Whatever no use talking about it.
It all boils down to this.
When it all boils down to this, the look of your name makes my heart flinch. it’s all in the name.
Seeing as how it all ends up like this. This is going to be the final straw.
The end of the end.
The end.
she could be from hollywood
let me just say this first things first, I am gonna be truthful with myself be frank with myself too , listen. This msg’s just for you.
So I’ve been thinking bout things lately and I’ve come to realise I’m not as dependant on you as I thought, yet there’s this unnerving feeling that is really cold if I’m not around you, I haven’t had a decent conversation with you for days, I dislike this feeling. I dislike losing friends or drifting away. Is there anything I’ve done that made me lose you this way? I’m not pissed, I’m dissapointed with myself for not seeing this sooner, for not doing anything to feel like I’ve lost a part of me. Wish we could just talk again, honestly.
I feel like such an insomniac~
Don’t know if ppl are reading my blog, can’t be bothered. Once again is blogging madness with me =) this usually happens when I’m high or just extremely sleep deprived. So here goes once again i question the very existence of life, the meaning and the realisation that actually life is very vague. I’m feeling fucked up because of numerous events that happened and I’m angry that I actually cannot come up with solutions to solve them myself.
So for life. I’m screwed in working life(i have none), Love life(screwed) and everyday life(do this the best cos its what i do everyday) Absolutely nothing. I was talking to Jun Ying and we decided, yeah its time to go back to singapore conference hall to work. Once again. not saying that its actually very bad there but well there are certain issues bout working there. E.G. facing the amount of ppl who think they are right when they know nothing at all. bloody shits.
Aww shucks did i mention I happen have a crush on a girl. LAWL. JACQUI! she’s a DJ from 987, cant really say I know her personally talked to her a couple of times and yeah she’s cool.
I don’t know why and I very well don’t know how but I can’t imagine what life was like before I met you. Even if I could there seem to be blank spaces in between. I may be overly concerned and I know not many people like that but I’m sorry its the way I am. I’m sorry.
